Nihilitarianism

Perhaps I can't say I always seek out every possible experience, because there's a time for each experience, and I'm always experiencing something at every moment. To achieve the most consciousness I have to be balanced between moving deeper into the experience I'm having and moving on to new ones, but I can only know when it's time to move on based on my feeling, on my own desires. So new experiences merely come along with my desires, and I have no control over this, nor do I wish it: I wish to let myself flow on the waves of my emotions, my consciousness. My code to experience as much as possible isn't really a rule: I can't force consciousness upon myself, but when it arises, I will not repress it. That is all I can do: to allow it to unfold.