Nihilitarianism

The emptiness at the end of the universe, infinitely dark. A woman starts upwards out of her vision, but the emptiness is still there, hiding beneath the thin veneer of electron clouds reflecting light onto hers. "It's gone… it's going. We're being torn apart every moment by the dark energy." She collapses. The others look at her, concerned.
"Did you override your neuromodulator again?"
"How could I not? Did you hear what I just said?"
"Yes, and it was stark psychosis."
"What was it?"
"You were convinced the universe was being ripped apart right now."
"Isn't it? 10 trillion years doesn't feel that long."
"You say that as if you know from experience."
"Don't I? I'm sure I've experienced a lot more time in a minute than the universe has in a billion years, because it doesn't notice. Anyway, no harm in a little bit of psychosis. If every experience is allowed, why not psychosis? We can always restore our brain to normalcy. But I need this. The vision I had wasn't about the physical universe but about the spiritual one. From the moment we're born we're being torn apart by emptiness, and we must resist with all our strength."
She sees the emptiness in the others' eyes as they shrug, not sure what she's talking about and looking toward the horizon, for something else in which to expand ever further, and already they're talking about flying elsewhere. The only limit to how much a modern transhuman can expand is how much will tear them apart…