Nihilitarianism

I've let go of expectations. I feel nothing towards the future but curiosity, because whatever happens, it'll be interesting as long as I'll be myself, and I know better than to hold on to anything, because nothing is what it seems and it's impossible to predict what turns of fate will ultimately be for better or worse. All I want is to be free through it all. I expect nothing of the future, therefore the future cannot expect anything from me. Whether I die or find perfect happiness is all the same for me: what matters is that I will not tolerate limits on my consciousness in order to have one or the other. Let me transcend anything that would force itself upon me.