Sunyata

I think I'd still be depressed now if I hadn't gone catatonic in 2008. It was like I was going insane, as if I had to become as depressed as possible before I could stop being depressed. As if depression was some process that I had to finish doing.
Like Churchill says, "If you're going through hell, keep going."You don't need to try to embrace the depression, just don't figh
t it. You're falling… just enjoy the sensation, because it's the same sensation as weightlessness, and there's no bottom, just an infinite void. It doesn't matter if you stay depressed for the rest of your life, because it's just a feeling and that doesn't mean anything either.
You can find a serenity in it. It's what Buddhists call sunyata and there's nothing sinister about it.
Fun fact: the symbol for sunyata ("void") is where the number zero came from.
And that number made modern mathematics possible and therefore the modern world: all the accounting and calculations involved in industry would've been impracticable to do if some people hadn't devoted their life to… absolutely nothing.